Full Calender

This summer has been rather interesting for me. So much has happened in such a short time. Relationships that have been distant for years were bridged back and I did things that I never in a millions years would have expected to do. My relationship with my dad has always been very distant. In the past two decades, he'd just been a distant figure in my disconnected family. Living in different countries does that to you. Ever since I was old enough to be sent off to school elsewhere, each of us has been living separate lives - our paths crossing only during the school breaks (on my part anyway). Mom and I have always had a rather easy relationship almost akin to friendship. I do whatever I wish as long as she's vaguely informed of my well-being. Dad and I never got along. We didn't have any sort of relationship whatsoever. He was a traditionalist and I was, well... me. I'm sure most who know me can see the problems already. :) But then the last time he was here, we had an actual conversation without fighting. I think it was the first proper conversation we've had in ten years. I was astounded. And then today, I got an email from him. That was practically a first. He's trying and so I can do no other than give a little. *makes a face* Blame my mother for bringing me up properly. :P

My mom's side of the family came to visit over the weekend. I made an effort to spend some time with them and I found that my little cousin sister was a such a sweetie. Given that her family are devout Christians, I never thought we'd have much in common but she's so different from her mom. Genuine and sweetly innocent. Now I wistfully look back and wish I still had that last piece of naivety to hang on to. Ignorance is sincerely bliss!

Last night, I did something I thought I'd never do. In fact, I do believe I had made it a point sometime last year to completely put it out of mind. I suppose my mischief mood just went a little further than expected. Nothing went as planned and even now I find myself a little disorientated about the whole situation. I suppose it was a good thing cause I look at this person in a new light but still... My skeptical and cynical side wonders: For how long?

Yellow Brick Road

It is often assumed that when one follows the yellow brick road, one has an ultimate goal. Yet sometimes, I wonder, and what happens when the yellow brick road suddenly stops and continues on the other side of a canyon. How do you get across? In a way, I am coming towards that break in my road and truth be told, I have no clue how to get onto the other side. So here's the sixty-four million dollar question: what do I do after my degree? I cannot depend on my parents forever.

But first, baby steps. I need to pass these upcoming exams. I almost had a heart attack the other day when I thought they'd failed me completely and took me off the degree scheme. Thank god for phones cause I was able to call and clarify immediately.

On the brighter side of life, I still have three weeks in SG to make a difference ie study a lot rather than bumming around like I usually do. I've decided it will start today. My gods and goddesses give me strength for I know I am far too easily distracted.