Silly Little Crushes!

It has been a few weeks since I last left a post here. I don't know why. No excuses. It is not as though I have not had time. Not been going out much recently. Just been sticking to my wednesdays and sometimes mondays down rileys and Trehafod every other Saturday. If I ever look back at my time at university I will have only one regret. I should have moved to Cardiff in the first year not the third. Would have known much more people in Cardiff than I do now. I have to admit though I have enjoyed my chill out period. Got to liven up a bit now though. I suppose the assignment I finished yesterday (yippee!) had something to do with the chill out time and the neglecting of my friends. Got so fed up with the assignment in the end just thought f**k it, lets just submit it as it is. Been trying to save my money lately but I don't know what for. Strange eh? Maybe Aubrey was right when he said I was as tight as a Jews foreskin. lol. Easter holidays at the end of the week. Can't wait. It's just a shame I have another assignment to do during that time. No worries. Have plenty of time. Would like to go back home for a few days but who knows, I might get all my work done sooner rather than later. Bet Kay and Rhys probably glad to get rid of me tho so that they can walk around the house naked and stuff (provided Isaac not around).

Anyway the title of this post refers to a stupid crush I have at the moment on someone. I feel like a kid again. Soooo sad! Over a year now I have been constantly changing my mind on whether or not I want to be in a relationship. It alternates between yes and no every couple of months although the no period usually lasts much longer. The yes window is usually only open for about two weeks but will always be open for this person. The thing is I have absolutley no chance. She is far too gorgeous for me. Suppose thats the way for most crushes. Whats worse is that she is a very good friend and over the past few weeks we have started to become very close mates. I feel lucky enough just being mates with her and wouldn't want to ruin it by saying anything. Best to keep quite, Im sure this crush will just pass by like the others e.g. the starbucks girl although I have had this crush for almost three years but only the last two weeks it has been really strong. This girl doesn't have a funny voice like the starbucks girl and she makes me laugh so much and there are not many women that can make me laugh as much as she does. We have quite a bit in comman too but I gotta try and stop this coz I really don't think im her type. God I wish I was gay! life would be so much easier. Just kidding!

Btw my diet lasted a whole week which is longer than what I thought it would go for. It ended in dramatic fashion (1/2 pound cheeseburger and chips, chocolate trifle, chocolate milkshake and a pack of M&Ms). Still been going to gym which is great coz it gives me something to do in the mornings. Gotta go now. Off out to un-neglect some friends. Is that a word? probably not!

Lost...

I had a great night last night. A whole army of us went out and got absolutely wrecked. It was mental. We started doing rounds and that was the end of me. Before we left the house some of us was already well on the way down, or up if you like... Anyway, a bunch of random things happened that night and I got to use my favorite phrase: I know what you did last night! In fact, it is more than likely that I was the angel of the night. I was the only one who didn't do anything remotely naughty - promise! Even though the DJ was monsterous, we still managed to have an amazing night. :P Oh the wonder of alcohol. Doubles all the way! *LOL*

Then today, I really don't know what's wrong with me. I feel like I should be doing loads but I haven't done anything. In fact, I'm feeling really guilty about it as well. *huge sigh* Maybe I'll just rope T into watching CSI or maybe we'll go for coffee or something... I really don't know... :( Just feeling so lost today...

Wounded puppy

Ok, it hurts more. Can't write. Can barely type. Can't live like this! My pc is my life! Time to go back to the doc's me thinks...

Visits

T came over last week. Stayed the better part of the week. It was lovely to see him again but on Friday, I was well fucked and I blame him. The mission was to get him drunk - not me! LOL Oh well, suffice to say, both of us - and a whole lot of other people were too... Great fun. Thing is, some of the night I remember most clearly while others I barely do. It's interesting. I know I did something not so nice but it's blurry. Got a swollen hand out of it too. My doctor said it's a little too swelled up to tell but thinks there might be a minor fracture. We can't be sure cause I decided against an xray. We'll know soon enough. If it hurts more, I'll go back and get it sorted. Doctor was upset at me for not going to the A&E sooner. Sigh... Can't keep everyone happy eh?