Reluctant to go home

Reason? It's a man. It's always a man isn't it? When is it not? *sigh* I wish sometimes life could be a little less complicated. Then again, I admit that once it does, I get bored. Definitely a no win situation. My headache this time? I'm going home tomorrow night. My parents think I'm staying. In fact, they're ecstatic with the fact that I'm going back. My mom called me specifically to check that I'm definitely going back this morning. Woke me up and all.

My boyfriend thinks I'll be back in a few months. Yep, it's been a while but the "forever single" plan didn't work out quite so well. We've been practically living together for the last three weeks and when he left yesterday, I felt like I lost something important. Well, I lost my Ralph sunglasses but this seemed a little bigger. :p What's strange is that we've known each other for a while but it's taken us until after graduation to get together. Sometimes I think my Gods are having a laugh. They always seem to give me what I ask for but every now and again, it comes at the most inappropriate of times. Oh well, can't have your cake and eat it all the time. I can only hope that things will sort itself out. Too tired to try and figure what the future holds anymore. I am happy with what the Gods have seen fit to give me. It has only been less than 36 hours but sweet Goddess, I miss him already.

T and I had an amazing night tonight. We started with a forty minute river cruise. I was so proud when he didn't faint, throw up or just generally die on me. *grins* And then there was the flight on the London eye after. That was absolutely spectacular. At the same time, it reminded me of how much I loved London and how much I didn't want to leave. Those who know me well know that I've always dreamed of living and working in London - even if it's only for a few years. Seeing the city at its most alluring made me wish I hadn't promised to go home at all. I will miss it dearly when I leave.

After the flight, there was the carousel. It was completely spontaneous but brilliant. I never laughed so hard. T was trying not to enjoy himself cause I bullied him into going on it and his excuse was that it was childish but he did it. He actually played ball and got on. I was very very impressed. Almost thought he'd protest. Then again, it was our last night together for a while so he could never say no to anything I truly wanted. :D And I really wanted to get on the carousel. I can't imagine how much I'll miss having him around. It literally kills me to know that I can't just demand to see him next weekend anymore. On the other hand, our goodbye, unlike the one with Dave, was happily short and sweet. It was like I'd see him again in a few days. Like we knew that regardless of when we'd meet again, everything would remain the same between us. The beauty of being the best of friends came out then. Our goodbyes are and will never be forever and thus shouldn't be painful or sad at all. That gave me a genuine smile for my journey home...