A little time to reconsider

I've often been told that I can get excessively dramatic - a viewpoint I almost concur with. Why almost? Generally because there has to be something to provoke me beforehand. Despite what some may choose to believe, I don't randomly stress myself without cause. If one's words and actions contradict each other, how can anyone blame me for being confused at the receiving end? I'm glad we spoke, albeit not thoroughly, but enough to clear the misunderstanding. Thinking about it now, we're just like everyone else trying their hardest to ensure that we don't get hurt in the process. No one wants to leave themself open and utterly defenseless, even to those you care about. Trust is earned and that takes time. I've been told more than once that I'm high-maintainence. Truth be told, I really couldn't agree more. It has been a while since someone managed to penetrate my defense mechanisms and I find myself extremely disconcerted. My cynical views of men automatically pounce forward at the slightest step out of tune. I can only hope that those around me will bear with me while I find my bearings. Yeah, that goes for you too Han.

One last thing I'd like to clarify: As mentioned many a time before, my blog isn't meant to be offensive to anyone in particular. It's a space for me to vent my thoughts and feelings when I feel like I need an outlet. I apologize if some do not understand that and assume that there's malice directed at them behind the words. Let me assure all that such outcomes are completely unintentional.