Lost in Confusion

There's been too many things going on my life in the last couple of weeks. I have had too many ups and downs to be able to cope properly. Sometimes, I swear the Gods are having a laugh at me cause this always seems to happen to me during my exam period. It isn't funny anymore. In fact, come to think about it, I haven't been able to find a single element of humor in it... ever. Maybe my Gods will take a hint and let me off. I'm too close to the edge and breaking down now would just not be a good idea.

Lately, I've been feeling lost and empty. There's no longer even an appetite for food anymore. Now that, is scary. I never lose my appetite even when I'm sick. My friends have been very sweet and caring and as much as I wish it was enough, it isn't anymore. They've pulled me through before but I don't know if they can pull me through this one. It seems that I've fallen into a deeper hole than the norm. I would consider depending upon my current boyfriend but he doesn't seem to be able to understand. Perhaps I'll wake up tomorrow and find out that everything's gone back to normal. Perhaps I won't make it there...