Drained out

I'm so tired: mentally, emotionally, whatever. It doesn't matter anymore. The outcome is the same. Everything has been going well in life with the exception of my exam result but hey, I didn't exactly do the work for it so I suppose I got the grade I deserved. *sigh* Life is never easy that way. You know you should do something but when you don't, the resulting consequences still get you depressed.

For a while, I was so happy, especially after I handed in my auditing assignment and left for London. Now that I'm back it feels like nothing has changed. I'm still stuck in a gray time warp. Everything is gray, nothing matters and you wonder - where did all the colors go?

I went to Tam's last night and stayed over for the first time. Spy: Your bed's really comfy! Thanks! It was cool. We spent ages chatting and I got to know him so much better. Today was a rather disjointed day for me. I spent the entire day doing things that I really shouldn't have done whilst ignoring all the things I really should have finished. Ah well, so much for determination to succeed in the course huh? There goes my 1st... might as well start looking at a 2:2 or even a 3rd. Man, I need to get my act together. It ain't cool.