A sense of satisfaction

My essay was handed in today. I stayed up Sunday night to finish it because I couldn't be bothered to do it earlier. Everytime I sat down in front of my computer, I'd do a little, get bored, then do something else. Most of the time, it involved getting out so that I wouldn't feel that sense of guilt. Despite all, I wish I was more motivated about the essay cause now I'm starting to regret my lack of effort. All I cared about on Sunday night/Monday morning was getting it finished. It was like: Quality? What quality? *sigh* Ever felt like you're waiting for something to kick in and give you a sense of urgency/panic that will make you work? No? Oh well. You're obviously not much of a student then are you? :P

Of course, while I was not doing my essay, I managed to go drinking thrice within the week - which is highly unusual for me - and get excessively drunk on at least two of the occasions. The interesting thing is that my party buddy turned out to be none other than my flatmate who I felt was trying to suffocate me with my ex in the weeks before. Strange how things seem to sort itself out. Still, I'm glad it happened as I probably need to spend more time with my flatmates.

The only problem about me being drunk is that I tend to call people who are part of the issues which have been troubling me. That seriously isn't a good thing. Anyway, I was being a little bitch on the phone and basically said stuff aimed to hurt then hung up of course. It wasn't the smartest thing to do as that particular person happened to be an ex. Don't you start with me Manasi: I don't really have that many! These two just happen to be an issue lately. Nevertheless, I called him on Saturday to apologize and now all's well. The best thing was that I didn't actually have to call him, he called me instead.

Still, I can't believe how much better I feel. The gods seem to favor me for the moment and for that, I'm excessively grateful. I feel comfortable spending time in my flat now, I have no assignments due before Xmas, home is less than two weeks away and things with my ex are going well. So far, life is good. :)